physics test.

today got physics test ma. den v tired. fell aslp. miss thang came to wake me up. knocked my table. boo. not like im the only one slping. >.< tired ma. den left 10 minutes. LOL. oh den found some mistakes. LOL thanks and THANKS huh. LOL.

oh. si ek fell aslp.nv reply me.make me so tired.haha

and he msg me. wheeee. but. it still became sad. arh. f. why why why. tell me why.
bahh suan le. like u said, things are not the same anymore. THANKS TO U TOO.

grrr

okie today dismissed early. see class photo and cca photo. not bad not bad. lOl. im buying ALL at the largest. so cool eh. LOL. last year le ma. nvm la.

den dun wan stay in sch. v boring. and i got no physics stuff to study so pangsehed mingjie and yunqian. den went out of sch wif yumin and huiqi.

den supposed to go home after eating. as in me and huiqi. den i v sian-ed. den we walked arnd. haha. GOT PASAR MALAM ok! haha. den after a long time. we went to sit at the mrt station there look at pple walking here and there. observing every stuff. and met many cedarians and pple tt we noe. hmm. den got many weird pple.

1) a man asked me to help him take pic of him and tp mrt station coz he likes the background? so orh piang! haha

2) an auntie came after him immediately to ask where is the letterbox. which was missing from where it was supposed to be.

3) den when we were sitting down, this uncle walked past us, looked at us, den we ignored. den when i next look up becoz of some noise he was making. ok whistle but wadeva. den he was smirking. and smiling. and huiqi insisted i blushed. BUT it's kinda scary. he's so kuku! lol. yucks.

4) den a group of beattyians i tink, were saying some stuff about cedar.

bahh. u see so many. last time got alot of siao siao one at tp de. can make frens wif ceyang. HAHA.

oh wells. tml got physics test. ALl sec 3 topics except light. and im still here blogging and not studying. SHIT la. i dun like to study. it's like 4th day of school only! =(( sighs.

hmm rollerbladed during pe. so fun. we played catching on blades. as in those who noe how to la. den end of everyting. mr chan (new pe teacher) supposed to be miss leong de! ok anyway he walk to me ask me my name say i blade quite well leh. ((: hehe. he's not AS BAD AS WE TINK HE IS. but he's got the face. SO SAD. lol. blahhh.

he messaged me.
so happy.
i was waiting for it this afternoon.
at the mrt station.
did he read my mind?
i dunno.

OH we took many pics. me and qi ((:

baoliang's bdae dinner. LOL

errs. i was da last to wish daniel happy birthday and the FIRST of course ((:
hmms.
slept quite late. after talking to xinwen on the phone. im sorry u have to hear me errr. LOL. bleahs.

den today cannot wake up.
eye very tired.
bahh.
never eat breakfast
den go sch.

pia geog. write until hand pain leh!

hmm den nv go recess also. pia alot of stuff la.
finally almost all done except PHYSICS. grr.
boring la.

hahaa!

den after sch wanru got exco meeting so must wait for her los.
den i nv eat lunch also.
wah dunno y not hungry. HAHA
hmm.
den the meeting was to decide positions and den it was kinda long.
we were late for around less than half an hour or so.

met terry keith xinwen and of coz da BOY of the day, daniel.
haha.
den we went to eat pastamania at cine.
bdae boy arrived earliest. so sorry i everytime late de x(
den xinwen dey all tot i reach le. LOL. sorry also. misunderstanding. LOL
woot broke again.
lOl.
treat him eat salad and drink. HAHA.
stilll owe xinwen and him present >.<
haha.
den walked around. walked till orchard mrt from cine den walked back all the way to ps.
den go eat cone.
sat in mac and do hw.
LOL.
den went off wif the others to take train except xinwen go take bus.
i tell u arh.
ALL the guys whacked me today except daniel. BUT he also got bully me. verbally! hmpf. v mean leh. BULLY ME CAN. daniel say tonite dun want tok to me =((

HAHA.
in the train was pretty sad.
but.
bahhh.
HAHA.
hmm. the day is happy day. WHEEEE

tml got pe. rollerblading. wheee. hehs. entry not v detailed kinda rushing off le. x)) bbyes want to see u pple again.

i held on to xinwen's hand today and keith wants to take pic. LOL.

my eye a bit weird today. IT WASNT WINKING ON PURPOSE KEITH.

((x happiie biirthday x))

this goes out to DANIEL aka MEANIEaka DANIU aka TUONIAO aka GEGE

happiie happiie merry biirthday to euuuu!!! x))
birthday song coming up.

:)) happiie biirthday to you! ((:
:)) happiie biirthday to you! ((:
:)) happiie biirthday to you-u! ((:
:)) happiie biirthday to you! ((:

x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le. ((x
x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le. ((x
x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le-e. ((x
x)) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le. ((x

=)) lalalala la la- ((=
=)) lalalala la la- ((=
=)) lalalala la la la- ((=
=)) lalalala la la- ((=

colourful entry for you! stay happiie forever. smiles.

woot.

a few days never update le. okie maybe like 1 day. haha. probably last update till i dunno when. SOON? i hope so.

cannot online too often le.
school's reopening like TOMORROW.
and i tink got chinese fu xi ce yan.
PUIIII
i dun like school.
but i MISS my frens.
i want to hang out wif them.
but i dun like to study.
sighs.
cant i have both.
cant i keep playing?
NO I CANT!
o levels in like 100++++ days. 126.
it will be higher chinese paper.
JIAK SAI!

so pls stop me from coming online if possible.
stop me from playing
stop me from going out.
get me to study with u.
book me now! at err. if u've got my number. LOL

hmms. was at my aunt's bbq ytd. many food. i tink eat utnil diarhhoea. second bbq of the week. but first one no food eat! ytd one is potong pasir residents party or sumting kinda fun. den stayed over. yaya! nothing much. came home today. finished up some history work. sighs. still got loads more.

tomorrow going to be very throw face. loads of clips on hair. sighs. but i dun wan cut. okie i already cut abit. to shape the ponytail. LOL. oh wells. shy shy. DUN LUFF AT ME IF U SEE ME!

sighs

I STAYED HOME ALL DAY LONG!
means i did nothing constructive again.

now now.
ive got english, chinese, chemistry (dun plan to touch), 2 history essays, 3/4 series 6.
okie.
dun look at me until like that.
i know that's alot.
but sighs.

MOODLESS.

i just sent out an email.
saved it in my draft as well.
den sent.
wanted to re-read.
BUT.
it's all gone.
:((
i wrote an essay man.
probably take you a long time to read.


imissyou.ilu*

sale sale sale!

so yesterday i decided to be a guai kia and not come online at nite.haha.so here i am now.

today morning wake up went to meet yunqian at somerset. was late. so i took a cab there. lazy. but money! arhhh! waste money.. *slaps myself* i need cash. grrr. anyone wan buy me wad i wan!? >.< okie. like whu will. blahhh. wadeva.

so from somerset we walked to far east where i trimmed my hair. hope sch reopen can tie. bahh. becoz the ponytail looks weird b4 cutting. before tt we ate burger king. student' meal. cheapo. LOL. hmm den cut at where shirlyn they all cut. hahaa. okie la. i guess. hmm den wah quite late le. study also cannot do much. so we went to walk walk. because rite. the auntie whu helped me cut hair say mango got sale. LOL.

so being the usual aunties. we decided to drop by to take a look. there were like SO MANY PPLE? and grabbing the clothes. den fitting rooom a lot of pple so dey just try in front of mirror. as in just wear on top of wadever they were wearing la. so desperate sia. typical singaporean. haha. quite cheap. den we walked to top shop. we saw someting tt was not bad. lol. so the two of us went into one fitting room den we try. lol. hmm. so we walked to and fro. mango and topshop. den we walked to taka go mac eat ice cream and slack. and we mustered alot alot alot of courage to go and look at normal bras SO THROW FACE. imagine if someone i know see me there. wah kns. SHIT. LOL.

den we walked back mango and bought 2 tops. topshop and buy 1 top. and in total. i spent $70++ there. plus all the food and cab fare and some other stuff like hair clips. $100++ =.- broke broke. dinner ask dad help me buy. LOl. oh wells. no money is like tt de.

showed my mum. she said the tops not bad x)) i dun haf bad taste de los! hmpf.

big jaryl say he was there. from morn to night. but i din see him. aiya wasted. he not wearing cap leh! lOl. he tt time chalet dun let me take it off. HMPF! oh well. LOL. bleahs. not fated. =X


he say he not going in there le. i hope so. ive lost all hope and confidence to salvage this relationship. it's really all gone. it's the end. all i can do now. is to keep all those precious and sweet memories we had together. wif all the messages deleted. i can only based on my own memory. 7 months say end den end. zhen de shi you yi dian jue. time will heal all wounds. time will make me forget u. time will make u non-existant anymore. time will delete u from my mind. time will do tt wont it?




cry no more i will. eat medicine i will not. cut i will not.
i promise.
wad contradicts the previous sentence is.
promises are meant to be broken.
((:

i wish u and her all the best.

chalet____

finally i've got some life. and not so boring. whole day study or stone. HAHA. on sunday i online until about 1 plus. den go into my room den pack my stuff. wanted to finish reading 1st book of harry potter so tt can start 2nd book at chalet. but din manage to start. first time i din read at chalet ok. so i 3 plus 4 den slp. 6 plus mum wake me up go sch le. but i walk arnd the hse until going to late again. pia cab. but wait v long for 1 to be available. i booked cab summore la! den slp arnd 3 hours. damn tired. go sch. nto concentrating on physics also damn boring. den after physics go dental. dental le go tp eat. den went off to pasir ris to meet the rest at 2.

i was kinda on time. den reach le nobody. actually haf but i dunno him de. so i dunno he there. haha. den wait da jar come. den ceyang nickt jian felix besley come. THEY WERE LATE LA. den we went off to chalet le. walking in tt time see kevin. err no comments. hmmm. i was in my freaking uniform. puii dey go into the room straight away jumped onto the bed. SI GAYS.keep effing each other de. keep gaying arnd in the chalet la. hmm watch tv played cards a lil. den ek come wif da food so they went to get. but i dun wan go coz i dun wan see him so dey leave me and da jar there. haha. den come back tt time dey come in from the connecting door say dun wan disturb -.- oh wells. den he came in i din say hi. i was totally avoiding. din look into his eyes once din look up at him once. but i can feel his presence i can see the other side of him which i haf nv seen before. den he went to the other room. den i abit not tt tensed. den dey wan go eat. so i changed out of my uniform. coz after tt dey wan play pool. hide hide hide. HAVEN 16 YET MA! cannot izzit. but nv check me la. den play wahh all of dem v pro wors. blur king [mingyi] can win alot of pple leh! hahaa. den went back to chalet arnd evening slack arnd again. gamble gamble gamble watch tv.

den bbq start le. heard amanda jasmine and clara here le. hmm den sumbody called me. so i went missing in action. walked arnd the whole chalet place. walk walk walk. den nv eat anything tt nite. blahhh. hmm den walked back chalet felix and jian say wann go swim den ask me got shorts anot. so lend him my extra fbt. HAHA he wear le damn short damn hot damn sexy wors. den he keeep complaining. v shy HAHAHA. at the pool den dey strip. porn star[ felix] de i seeee b4 online le. AHHAA. free show. den i go near them, they spray water at me den was wet la. went back chalet dey ask me i swim also arh. den i say nv. bathe le. den go out. the rest were gambling. hahaha. so i went to join them. but i nv gamble. doiii.

halfway den got big problem. for safety purposes dey shoooed us back into the room. den if really v serious all run away. where got like tt one. so we slacked in the room. was a bit worried for him.wonder why i shud be. dun care him. puii. den after a long while dey say everyting settled peacefully. so we continued gambling. the whole chalet i won a little la. abit only. but got win happy le. heard ceyang lose alot. pooor ting.dajar left quite early. den 12 plus besley and jian left. but jian came home early next morn LOl v early. den 1 plus nickt and clara nidta go mum come and wait outside sia!the rest pei him walk out try negotiating wif his parents but cannot. hmm so mingyi and i play vball outside! lol. so long nv play not bad. den mingyi go return e ball. i was in the room heard someone ask where was i. sum one say playing vball outside. den dey realised ball there. LOL. by this time i was out of the chalet sit by the pit to sms. den jasmine came out. SHy.me. haha anyway we tok abit den okok liao. LOL. den the rest came back ask us go in and tok. ahhaa. hmm so after all the pple left left. lanjun slp at the door dere. den mingyi isolate himself. singchang was in charge of the lights and

THERE WAS A PILLOW FIGHT!!!!!!!!

me, jasmine, ceyang, xiaoben, xiao jar. errrm.s dey keep attacking jasmine. poor ting. she kena whack utnil arh. i duno hwo to say. den everytime dey whack i go and attack the rest from behind. very tiring one. den keep running arnd den must siam here siam there. lOL. den we v noisy. security guard come and warn us.we were v v noisy obviously to get warning at a chalet. AHAH. HAHA. den after tt got a lot of false alarm. all zao to bed and pretend slp! lOL fakers! den in the middle of the nite go out find food. go cheers den go mac buy mcflurry to eat. hungry leh. den walk back room. fought a little more. den play HEART ATTACK. den xiaoben say he dunno how to play. den wah piang. dey play v not organisedly. haha den a few times bluff pple. den haha when xiaoben shout. he enjoys seeing pple siam. he keep luffing. first time play cannto blame ma. rite? HAHA den play play play sianed le. den we played badminton at 3 plus. played a while damn funny. den went in again. got one group of guys keep screaming i wan play badminton also.

4 plus. nickt and clara sneaked out of the hse to come back. by this time. err xiaojar jasmine and xiaoben kinda slp le tt kind. dey tok and play a while den really "died". hmm. den the rest of us play cards again. den play play abit tired el. everybody just squeezed on the bed. nickt came slp oso. lol. hmm. just close eyes not say slp completely. den dey went out morning. rain sia. den come back jian felix and ceyang wan go swim.

so i went wif them. expected water to be v cold raiing lhe! den ceyang jumped in. eh nto cold. jian went in too. den felix went in. HAHA. oh wells the moment he jumped him. something float up from his pocket. den a very loud "FUCK" could be heard. he jumped in wif his phone. and phone was pronounced dead immediately but sim card still working. den dry it. den went back into the pool. haha. dey spray water at me until i wet again. den dey ask me go in. dun wan la. HAH. den xiaojar and nickt wake up den dey come. dey test the water not v cold leh.s o dey went back chalet change and RAN to the pool wearing only shorts LOL. dey like v paiseh. DAMN FUNNY> i saw la. from on top. dey are like some kukus. HAHA funny funny. dey came in too. and played. before dey came ceyang and jian and felix were playing some sick game. 2 pple open leg. the 3rd dive thru. errr. everybody was having fun. DEN haha. ceyang dive thru. and errs. attacked felix there. i sit de position can see the whole process and how felix jumped! HHAA. den after tt lanjun and mingyi came say going home. but the rest managed to persuade them come swim. den dey had the push each other into water game. first person to go in was nickt. HAHA den second person dey all target felix. felix pull ceyang. den xiao jar just push ceyang in HAHA. hmm. i keep hugging lamp posts. felix v jiao hua. keep wan to push me in. hmm den dey started playing catching in the water. catch le must go to the side. can move arnd but must hold on to the wall den cannot swim but alot of cheat. HAHA. v funny also. luff until u peng tt kind. cheaters. den dey keep diving down to look at the hole where pple below can see u HAHA. hmm
den i sit by the side of the pool. whenever felix try to push me down. den i scream v loudly. soon the guards keep looking here see us. check if we were doing someting. den i sat at the metal ting. ceyang closed in on me. felix was at the back. i hugged the metal ting. ceyang grab my legs. felix held my hand and pushed me into water. arhhhh! totalllly wet. puii. hmm. after a while felix pulled me into the water. though i resisted alil. scream and scream. third time felix caught me unguarded and push me in! arhhh but going back tt time. xiao jar was by the side den i push him in. sense of achievement. wheeee. x)) wah can see so many guys half naked. FREE SHOW. a chalet worth going to. LOL

went back chalet. clara jas n xiao ben still slping. den we gamble a while more. den wake dem up go eat. haha den eating tt time clara's parents called. err. alot of tings den ceyang help them messaged mushy stuff to their parents. den parents dun believe is nick and clara type one. HAHA so want them home immediately. but nv. ben xiaojar ceyang singchang nickt me clara jas went to watch batman at tampines mall. damn sianed. i wathc b4 le. plus tired. i kinda slp at the movie. but hor the sound effects keep waking me up. i keep jumping. damn scary la! so loud for wad. piang. den the guys v concentrated but the clara and jas alot of jokes one leh. den xiaojar nidta zao. we took cab to and fro tm. my side singchang paid for us. HAHA. den went back tt time everybody say go off. haha so all of us went off except singchang la and the other side de pple. amanda went off in a cab or sumting. the rest of us went to eat some malay food.

den xiao ben and ceyang say wan go play pool. xiaojar went off ALONE hahahaha. den me jas clara jian and nickt we took 88 to pei jas. den alighted wif jas. she went off. the 4 of us took 147. din wan to take 88 very long to go tp den the tay siblings went off at their stop. den me and jian took to serangoon. den he pei me go 105 bus stop. on the way home. had many nice talks wif jas clara nickt and jian. haha. den me went home. changed to 238. HAHA took alot of bus. reach home bathed online a whlile bth. go to room KO. 7 plus 8 slp until this morning. 11 plus. still tired now.

I ENJOYED THIS YEAR'S CHALET ALOT. although it was liek totally difff from last year as in the pple. but ya i really had fun. and made a lot of new frens! wheeee. thanks for everybody who made e difference. really happy. lurve da pillow fights. love jasmine. HAHA ((:

hahaha wake up le read a msg.

kinda sad. kinda dunno wad to feel. kinda lost. kinda confused.
i wish u good luck.

sighs.
woot long entry.
i just wrote an essay
a colourful one. wheeee. my life is not just b l a c k and w h i t e. it is full of colours.

hmm today had father's day dinner wif my grandpa. nice food again.
now burning songs coz ive got no mp3 le! lend to terry! so must use discman.
greedy me burn alot of songs! hahaha. bleahs! oh wells.

NOT GOING TO BLOG FOR maybe 2 DAYS!

gonna meet my doom! x((

byebye!!!!!

second entry of da day.

so it continues. i went out for dinnner. suppoosed to go geyland "no signboard" seafood restaurant to eat crabs. LOL. errms dad's day celebration or so called it. oh wells. went to geylang passed by many places. was hoping to catch a few chickens in action. but. maybe father was driving too quickly. oh well reached there. the person say no place for parking and must wait 45 minutes before we can get a seat.

which means: 45 minutes to sit and 1 hour for food to come!

to wait 1 hour and 45 minutes is really too long. and intolerable esp the fact tt i din eat breakfast and lunch. so we decided. NO. we shall not wait so long to eat stupid crabs. xiaojar say he at chomp chomp eating stingray!!!!!!! >.< he's a copycat ok! oh wells. so i suggested chomp chomp newton macpherson and wadeva i can tink of. so bro said I WAN EAT CRAb. i rebuked whu say newton cannot eat crab. ok so there we were.

yummylicious delicious simply fantastic.

so this is wad i had for dinner (costing less than $60):
1) stingray! damn nice la. i love it so much i finished most of it x))
2) chilli crabs. bro finish most of this. LOL it was spicy and i was crying. BOO.
3) barbecued chicken wings. wheeee!
4) chicken satays! bro ate like half of it.
5) oyster egg.

*are u pple jealous or feeling hungry?*


wad a spread. and it's like damn cheap. WE SHUD EAT IT SOMEdAY. anybody wanna go wif me?? x))) muahahaha.

so i came home smelling like the fooood. so oily. and re-bathed. even though i bathed le den go out. less than 2 hours later i have to bathe again. wad to do! ahahha.

den i come here and sit in front of the comp le.

boring.

haven been updating for the past 2 days. for the first time since this blog started. hahaha. quick update. doubt anybody's reading anyway.

thursday.
woke up kinda late n by a call from a cousin whu said he's coming over to my hse. so i got up. den cooked instant noodle and opened canned food for brunch. - breakfast and lunch. hmm. den he came over i used comp a while den he ask me let him use coz he nids it to do sumting. so i gt nth to do. bored, i went into my room and lie on my bed to listen to music. stoned and stared. apparently i fell aslp again. and i was aslp till my mum came home. and i was scolded. becoz i forgot to help my mother do the laundry which i promisd i wud on wednesday. oh wells. got scolded for hp bill too. last last bill $150 last bill $150 latest bill $130 got improvement. but still v high! im sending 1500 msg! ALOT. alamak! must restrict. but it feels weird not messaging. anyway. got my mum to buy burger king for me for dinner. ask her she eat already anot she say going aunt hse who will cook for her everyday la. BUT haha aunt called dad to say she din cook dad forgot to tell mum. so mum had no food. and becoz i forgot to help my mum do laundry. she forced me to vacuum the whole hse. even under the bed. it's so tiring ok!. i was perspiring profusely after that. and she rewarded me wif fruits. ok thanks arh! but i rather do the fruit myself and e housework urself. LOl. den went over to stay at my aunt's hse. reached at 10+. cannot blame was watching PROJECT SUPERSTAR. but no sing song one leh. booo. den bathed. waited for dad to mop floor den go. reach there. slacked. use abit of comp. aunt was making jelly. played games. and i cudden slp. nto used to it. walked in n out of da room tried slping in da living room. flipped and rolled arnd. and i only fell aslp at 6am. and woke up at 9 plus. due to sister v noisy.

friday.
as said woke up at 9 plus. without eating. walked out to potong pasir mrt. my aunt stays rite inside pp and the cake shop is rite outside. so went for a morning walk wif my cousin la. and it started raining heavily and we cant possibly run back wif da cake. so ya. took a bus. and waited for my cousin to bring the umbrellas down for us. the cake is pretty. for 5 year old kids. HAHA and when we were home. wah. loads of food. u noe kids party. so dey dun eat adult food but fried chicken wings hotdogs(which some kid said it looks like sotong becoz of the way it's cut) sotong ball onion rings. and antoher aunt came especially early to make her sushi. and they were nice. yummy. but the kids were very noisy and playing wif my cousin's toys. which he happily and proudly showed off each and everyone of hsi toys to his frens. thus depriving them of game time. den dey were running arnd the hse. POLICE AND THIEF -.- super noisy. and dey kept knocking into the poor me who was at the computer. doii. den blow cake. den dey left. and tt's only first part. den older cousin brought a group of frens over.f rom zhonghua! >.<>.< den the adults played mahjong. and me and 3 cousins set up another table and we play mahjong also. HAHA. was on a winning streak but nv bet money. hmm. den dinner was more adult food. got BROCOLLI! er chicken. den stingray like bbq tt kind damn nice. den got sushi also. den some special kind of prawn which taste nice. and loads moer. over all yummilicious.! pro aunt! hahaha. got popcorn chicken. taste like kFc's but different. is get from market de. den slack until at nite. den went home. sister down wif fever suddenly. haha. and she's now in malaysia wif another aunt. doiii!

today.
effing boring. with nothing to do. and as usual no mood to do homework. i realised i did more than nanthini? hahahaha. oh wells. came online tok to a few pple. den hp no sms. nothing else! monday going bbq. wheee. wun be updating. got sch first summore geee. will update more maybe later. if got things to update. hahaa.

barker pple are still in malaysia and wun be back till monday. when i'll be gone. ahhaha. hope dey are enjoying. though xinwen did call a few times back and ask me call him back. BUT. im playing mahjong. HAHAHA. >.< sorrry!

nil

i do realise that many people actually read my blog but refused to acknowledge their presence. and that includes you emmeline. ((: SO EVERYBODY WHO'S READING MY BLOG! TAG ME!!!! >.<

went out wif xinwen again to study. did 3 quarter an essay den gege ask us go meeet him. after much persuasion, we decided to go ps to meet him and keith. den gege ate his bk meal while we went to buy tickets for batman x)) not bad a show. LOL. it was funny at some part cute at some parts and cool at another part. LOl. and when we buy finish da ticket. den we went down. i started playing wif da sauce. den daniel was asking xinwen to feel the "experiment" den i slam his hand onto the sauce. and it stinks after tt. gee. den daniel also got some of it on to the base of the cup den he touch. stinky also.

oh well den come home. xinwen's holding on to 1) my long black and hairy ting 2) my penknife 3) my movie ticket. i wan hors! READ THIS! return it all to me. x)))))


im not prepared to face everyting yet.
gimme some time.
i will overcome everyting.
i will.
if i cant change the past i will mould the future.
thanks for being there for me whoever hu noes and cared.
wanru. not to worry. i wun gif up on it so easily. gimmme time.
xinwen. thank you for ur chicken rice and drink and chips x)) ilu so. LOL. hugs. thanks for really being there. and being sad about me. thanks for toking to me. thanks for everyting
gege. sorry for worrying u. thanks for ur advice. i will try i will.

but what's done done.

i cant remove it.

it's a scar

but it's damn NICE. x)

I AM A BITCH!

oh well i kena woke up by messages and calls. den in the end went out wif xinwen to study at ikea bk. and i wonder if i'll still be going tml. ok. so we studied. did 1 essay not bad not bad it was pretty long. he was doing maths. well i took a cab there. i ate bk.dumped my 80 cents change into the bin while clearing the table.. study. walk in ikea. dinner teppanyaki. not bad not bad. but the person forget to gimme back the change. den she shortchanged me. aiya 50 cents gone.total $1.30 wasted.well.luck is not tt good today. den we walk arnd anchorpoint den say go eat mac. so aiya alot of tings happen. no mood to blog. I AM SO SORRY FOR EVERYTING. now because of me.im sad he's sad. i wonder if there are still pple whu's sad. mum cheated me home by saying dad discovered my secret and wan me home to scold me. wad the fuck la. bloody fucker.

i dunno whether to be happy to be sad to be angry to be hurt or wad. i just dunno wad to feel anymore. fine. im such a fucking bitch. im so fucking scheming. like it's my fucking fault. OK. fine everyting's my fucking fault. i shan't fucking bother you pple anymore. i am fucking hurting u all. OK. i am hurting u all. i shall fucking get out of ur lives. if tt is wad u tink. i cant fucking change it. it's your fucking mind. i just din expect all these to fucking happen. ok maybe i did. well. i am fucking hurting your fren. i will get out of his life. i will. i shall hibernate and stay in my hse till sch reopens. or maybe i shud just start rotting at home. lest i go arnd hurting pple! ive got so much to say but i cant fucking bring myself to say it. they are forgiving they are naive they are stupid HAPPY? i am such a bitch i am so despicable i am getting back at them. to you: i wan to treat u as a fren. but i guess i cant. im going to hurt u i am. u have very good frens around u. u dun need me anymore. this period of time i enjoyed myself alot. ok then again. im out to lie to u. im plotting. im the mastermind. im the lead actress. im the director. im everyting. and im myself. im so sorry about every single fucking thing tt's happening. den again. maybe im not.

W H A T E V E R R

oncebittentwiceshy.

fuck.

today is a fucked up day.

lol.
met xinwen at ps was late by half an hour.he ask me donate $2 to his scout ting.we went to take neoprint. it was kinda awkward wif only the two of us. but it turned out not bad. he spent 190sec decorating one pic and spoiling one of them which i already decorated.so mostly da neoprints were not decorated! >.<>0! oh after eating we met daniel(his pencilcase.turned out it mite be his penknife which slit it but i din see the penknife which means it's gone!!! SORRRY!) kevin keith terry(lent him my mp3 he upload alot of songs go in wors hehe) oh well den dey pangseh-ed and i wanted to give daniel a penknife which i gotten from carrefour.it's all metal. boooo.

den we went to some ulu place in ps. got condom leh! i tink used one summore. tsk tsk. u wan make out in public nvm la i wun blame u no money get even a motel room or hotel in geyland or cannot do in ur hse. BUT clear up after u do ma! tsk tsk.

den some nus gal ask us to donate. grr

den went to watch movie cursed. it was not scary not horror. but the sound effects and suspension feel is tt. every sudden move is like WOAH. and i was comfortable in my seat x)) . oh wells. den went heeren and bought someting. den went dinner. i'll elaborate in the later part. im feeling rather sad. mum gave me $30 i spend it all

$30 - $10 top up farecard
- $5 for ytd dinner
- $15 for this week allowance i not going sch ma.

and i spent so much today i was so sad. next time bring lesser money out. grrr!

$7 - neoprint (xinwen paid $2 well it's monday.feeling rich! =(( )
$6 - dinner (actually is long john one me and wanru queue halfway xinwen msg her say he go kfc and we couldn't let him go alone so kfc we went! so ex!! )
$7 - movie (cursed)
$2 - xinwen scout ting
$2 - dontion
$3 - popcorn
$8 - heeren shopping
$9 - dinner (i treated xinwen!!)
$2 - carrefour shopping

total: $45+++

arhhhh! tt's like more than the $30 my mum gimme. was damn upset la! and just when im so upset after calculating how much i spend. the mac staff serving me offended me.!

first i went over. i ordered. can i have a FILLET-O-FISH students meal upsize and a McNUGGET students meal upsize. den xinwen say he wan change to milo so i said can u change ONE of the drinks to milo, thank you. he din even repeat my order he's supposed to ok. i wonder if he was listening to wad i say la. it was super over wad i expected the price to be. if nv change it would be $9.40 but now it's $10.60 was wondering what caused the big difference.

so now im supposed to get:
1) 1 fillet-o-fish burger
2) 1 6-piece nuggets
3) 2 large fries [everytime order upsize sure large de will dey be so stupid as to tink it's medium when mac will earn more money? so i concluded tt staff is stupid because he gave me medium!]
4) 1 medium coke
5) 1 medium milo

this is the first freaking time sumbody cant take student meals order correctly.

what i got at first was:
1) 1 mcchicken burger [which we din order u see is he paying attention? i say sack him useless]
2) 1 6-piece nuggets
3) 2 medium fries
4) 2 medium milos

fuck la. i cant take mc milo for hell sake. and i just took coke at the cinema. go home lao sai arh. kns. grrr. so firstly i told him tt i tot i said change one drink only. den he say got meh? i thought u say two. i was like freaking pissed. customers are always rite TOO BAD. u could have at least changed it to a coke rite? why too much work arh. i swear i'll complain against u. BAD SERVICE BAD ATTITUDE.grrr. oh ya for ur information it's the one at wisma. wanted to take a pic of da guy de!

den i realised. hey wrong order!

so in the end i got:
1) 1 fillet-o-fish
2) 1 6-piece mcnuggets
3) 2 medium milo like wth la!
4) 2 medium fries

LOOOGI leh!!! grrrr.
wanted to post some pictures. but grr. i haf everyting but i dunno how to >.<
got today's neoprints. HAHAA. blehas.

u noe i was so effing pissed i walked off without saying thanks because i tink he's so fucked up wif a fucked up face summore la din take a good look at his name man. and i din even bother to ask for sauce which i normally will take! (mayonaise barbecue and chilli) and wad the la! i stared at the counter at all the mac staff and was being pissed and just ate the fries plain! arhhhh! den xinwen help me go take x)) heheheh. oh well. we started taking all the mac stuff. so angry angry angry!! i wan to complain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


anyway now im wondering how pple can be so hypocritical. and i din say it without evidence unlike some people. xinwen would understand but wad the hell la. it's like. u wan u tell me. u dun in front of me good good behind bad and to some other bitches la. if u are jealous TELL ME. i'll keep a distance. >.<>

boring sunday.

boring sunday. where i did nothing but online and watch tv.
grr.

saw sumting amusing.
a cat in a mac.
the cat got chased out.
but continued staying outside e mac.
it stands in the middle of the entrance.
when any idiot open the door and not follow in.
the cat runs in before da idiot.
how amusing.
den when dey saw tt dey let the cat in.
they gave a face.
the kind when u go gotcha face.
SO FUNNY.

and i walked to the mac and back.
coz ive got so much time >.<
coz nobody wan go out study.


grrrr!
bad day.
short entry.
wheee.

boo

hmms in the end i din go to phua chu kang musical. apparently my 5 year old cousin came in the morning. when i was still slping. he came into my room and disturb me!!! arghhh! but i still slp. dun care him. den he just slp on the flooor. lol! so cute rite! hahaa. den my mama keep asking him wan go anot. wah den he say wan leh! being the kind me i decided to let him go in the end. but my sister was jealous la. she scared my mum dote on him more than her. so childish can she's already like primary five? dortss rite!

so ive been home the whole day again. which means i din do anyting today again =X not productive. slackish. fuck la. hwo to finish my hoemwork if continue to like tt. alamak.*slaps forehead* jiawen's blog password is so lame can! grrr.

oh ya so just now xinwen ask me out for dinner den he ask me where den i say toa payoh he say ok. but actually my dad buying dinner for me le. so i said i dun wan. den he say how can like tt one. so i lied. IM SORRY. ((: forgive me wun you? x)) ilu*

ya see so little happen. my life is getting more and more boring. or izzit i cant recall anyting. arh. shud i go to da chalet. tink tink again bah! oh ya now i wan get de phone is 7270. though no mp3.
it's either 6260 wif mp3 and fm radio btu super big or 7270 wif fm radio or 6170 wif nothing. but now many pple tell me 7270 so i tink i'll go wif it. everybody's getting new phone wheeee! stupid xinwen keep saying his 6230i v nice BUT I WAN A FLIP PHONE. act zai. haha. den tink of plan. shud i get an all day freeincoming but only got 500 sms and 100 free outgoing or my current one 7pm - 7am 900 sms and 100 free outgoing. crap. dun tell me depends on whether i call more or sms more. BOTH ALSO ALOT!!!!! >.< grrr. wadeva. next time den tink. still got 15 days. lol!

pardon me for the following paragraph.forgive me for doing so.

u hell disappoint me. u fucking arsehole bloody bastard )_%*#_$)$. i dunno why i gave in to u in the past. i dunno why i trusted u so much. and believe that u stop smoking when actually i noe. i sense it. i can almost confirm it when i ____ u. but sighs. im so naive. why would this happen. i din wan to listen when everybdoy was telling me u stopped smoking. now i do. because ur frens have told me so. i hate u. i hate u. i hate u. for doing all these to me. U grrrr! i dunno wad to say also la. haf tattoo big already la. fucking idiot. i hope u get infection and die earlier. i wun cry anymore! im glad i deleted all the memories of u.

-FUCK YOU!-

airport_______airpork? muahahaa.((:

today i woke up at 11 plus den read tt val huii clara pangsehing me not going airport! >.<>.< oh ya so we were at the burger king for a while den went to mac to find val and huii. den slacked there most studied until like 10pm like tt.

den we went to belt 37 to wait for them. oh ya mingjie and engkiat and felicia also there. ahhaah. doiii. hmmms. den we take plain paper. i wrote " xiaobai! welcome home! and cedar! hahaa. den saw lim kim choo there also and many other pple. we go jie ji. triple sci some pple went to thailand on a school trip. the idea was that triple science no nid study tt much during holidays. means we nid la because we lousy la. ok la wadeva los. and dey like only pay $300++ and dey take sq flight and stay in 4 s tar hotel summore wad hte hell la. must be lim kim choo.

she's so irritating! i dun like her! super biased against me one la. whole day catch my hair stand up if not skirt short if not behind hair too long. catch this catch tt. grrr! irritating la. oh ya. den we ran to catch the last train. and i ask my daddy go paya lebar fetch me. lazyy ((: bleahs. and here i am.

today din really study >.< MISS WU YUNQIAN FINALLY GOT HER FIRST HANDPHONE! tt's someting to rejoice about. now we can contact her easily. and no nid call her hse. i wonder if she'll message in class. hehe.shall message her in class though she only sits diagonally to me. and toking to her is safer than messaging her. HAHAA. wheeee. her number not v pretty de leh. quite hard to memorize >.< IM A BIG NOKIA FAN!!!

kekeke.

xinwen supposed to come after his campfire. but he went to play lan. den he say he mite come. ask us leave tt time call him to tell him dun go le. BUT. i only in my dad car den i remember. he was waiting for the train to airport =X sorrrry darling i forgot!! hahaha. paiseh arh. den tok to him until his bus come. so sorry. imagine i nv call den he go >.<SAY SORRY WHEN U ARE IN THE WRONG!!! keke. den i called him wenwen and keith was jealous of us. HAHA.

chij tp had their campfire today. they wanted to invite us to put up our item for their campfire ok! can see how good our item is la. it's like an invitation to perform. but we rejected. mdm faridah say nobody's free to go during the holidays. yunqian said her fren say ij guides jealous we can dance. x)) wheeeee. like so cute rite. oh ya. dey did flying fox also? but xinwen say it got stuck at the top ((: why are we so pro. i tink we are like damn pro. OURS DAMN PRETTY! hahahahaa. bleahs.

din see sumbody online wors. so messaged him. lol. tot sumting happen. MUAHAHA. am i KIND or am i KIND?

i dunno whether to luff or to cry___))```

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY JIAWEN!!!!!!! SWEET 16 xPpPp. guess i wun be able to win her but x))

i lost to yvonne in tagboard and friendster and handphone. i wonder why she's so fast! all jiawen's fault tell me wad my clock fast. grrrr! JIAWEN! booo x)) stay happie always.




i cant efffing go to slp ytd. 1 plus i went offline 3 plus im still awake. maybe i was still rather disturbed by everything tt's happening to me. which are caused by me. so serve me rite. well. den i went to del my whole inbox full of HIS messages and i cried harder and harder reading each and everyone of them for the last time. i had difficulty breathing i felt tt i nearly died. to another someone: i thank you for telling me more things that i shud noe. at least i got to noe more about u. thanks for helping me and giving me some advice which i may not have folllowed but still. thanks! and so i went to gallery and deleted every single picture of him too. cry and cry and cry. just cannot stop. and i just lied on my bed and try to cry myself to slp. but i felt that i din sleep at all.

i keep on waking up to change radio station to songs i have heard before and the next thing i know. is six plus le. so my mama keep waking me up. and so i hafta wake up. and i was so early tt i still took a cab to sch and the first few to reach schoool. lol. and stupid geog was so effing boring la. i was like toking to yunqian throughout the lesson updating her. hehe. den dismissed half an hour earlier at 9.30! wheeee! damn happy la. den me go dentist. VERY GOOD LEH. but i was hyper. the nurses damn good and funny and comical and GOOD LA! hehe. alot of interaction even about gals stuff. But dey cant do anything to me and i have to go back again. because i got medical history and dey nid the letter FUNCTIONAL MURMUR geeee. so mafan! but nvm la. den i help dem do tings while waiting for meiru. den met up wif jiawen mingjiee and yunqian den go vjc because mingjie nidta go sign admission stuff DSA la. grrrr! goood la. den we took bus but over took the stop. so we take another 1 hour bus because we decided to go back tp eat. WASTE time i was so hungry le la! den we ate pizza hut. very hua. lol. 2 pizza and many side stuff. eat until so fulll pay $8 only. LOL. cheappp.

den went to ps to meet gege xinwen wanru terry terry fren and terry's fren fren. LOL. aiya dunno la.mingjie dey all came too but dey went to starbucks and gossip! lol. wah lau some idiot. arhh nvm so scary. booo! not my fault >.< it scared some shit out of me la. geee. den went kfc and slacked wif everybody. listen songs damn nice. aiya den went home. [summarized] details no nid to noe la. XINWEN only toked to me at da end. but kena ignored lOL. who call u. mauhaaha. wheeeee. must be gege told u someting. because i just din wan to tok to u first. BLEAHS!

so everyting's ok le. reading the entry makes me cry. so touched. i read one time cry one time. I LOVE U. hhahaha. i din expect u to... hehe. he's only sec 2. dun anyhow tink. hmmm. LOl. sighs. i dunno leh. izzit really over. i tink it is. i shudden be tinking too much.


MY DAY ROCKED TODAY. just being able to see youu**

____________sighs.

one problem after another. i dunno wad to say.

today i woke up at 1 pm! woaahh slp very long leh! but i dun wan to wake up to face reality. i wan to wake up thinking all that has happened is just a dream. one moment im full of hopes. the other i gave up. arhhh! fuck. wadeva. i din mean to do it again. i really dun. i just cant control myself. im sorry to everybody. maybe not u maybe not u maybe not u. bahh. so i woke up many msg. i was kinda hesistating to open da messages. hoping one wud be yours. there it is. but. i dunno why i felt wad i felt. den decided to meet xinli whu went sch to check if comp lab is open she wan upload song. den we went to tp lib mac and study den ty came and we study together. was slacking until ty came and finish her food. and i did 2 hist essay today. booo. den came home for dinner.

watched superstar. why do people wan to go on tv and act like clowns when dey cannot even sing? where has their pride gone to? izzit worth it for a show to put down urself till like that. if u noe u cant sing u jolly well dun participate in this kind of show to let pple luff at. seeing u all like that i dunno wad my reaction shud be to luff or to cry. how old are u all le. still do such throw face stuff. for example sumone whu dun look like ou xuan at all say she looks like ou xuan. the other looks like ruhua like totalleh. but. YA? why go tv and insult urself? ruhua esp. u go on national tv and u go and do all the rubbish. i feel so hurt for u. do u enjoy being luff at? i bet u go home and cry each time u finish doing the show. or are u just like me happy outside sad deep inside. where nobody willl see u cry? or do u cry when nobody's around? like wad i will do? i dunno. dun u feel painful when everybody shuns u?


and i came online. now i feel so hurt. i dun wanna cry tonite de. i really dun. and i tot i'd cry only because of him. yet now. another problem. wad is trust? trust is thrash. i will nv trust anybdoy anymore. everybody is freaking liars. even me myself. so why shud anyone ever trust me? if everybody wud trust everybody. den the world is so wonderful. but if everybody trust everybody, the police will haf nth to do, the prison wardens will haf nth to do. and the world will nv be perfect. for not even someone can be perfect. not even god is perfect. sighs. cry i shud. cry it all out. BUT why shud i cry over him. it was such an unexpected situation. i din expect the tears to drop so naturally. a blink of the eye the flow of the tears. wadeva.

boring day!

it's just another boring day where by i slept till 11am like that. and remedial is like from 8-10? so i like just slept through remedial without even noticing im like so pig? PIG <-- pig colour leh!. lol.nvm nothing's wrong with being pig? lol wheeee. xinwen ask me go out. but damn lazy to go out la. very very lazy and not feeling good either. so after much persuasion. VERY LONG but i still din go out. so spend da whole day rotting again. damnn. staying at home is a waste of time. at least i go out can do sumtign constructive like homework. i just cannot do homework at home i dunno why leh. wadeva la.i only went out because my mum force me go buy dinner for her. geeee. see nv go out means nothing to blog. actually got ting. but suan le.



I DO NOT WANT TO BLOG ABOUT IT ANYMORE.u no nid come here anymore le.






reallytoomuchformetosayanyting.

erms wad the?

well. today had geog remedial. 8-10.cabbed to sch.lazy to walk sia.must ask mama pay me back top up farecard money if not bo lui.hehes.okie got abit of lui now. $$.30bucks wors.emergency usage geee.supposed to meet xinwen wif wanru after geog rememdial. but after geog remedial wanru pangseh-ed AGAIN! she going to eat wif joleen they all. hahaa. the last time was ytd. supposed to send xiaobai they all off to thailand today de. mornign flight.damn early one las. actually my daddy sending me. but den he suddenly cannot make it. so he ask me take cab. den wanru was saying plus the surcharge all v ex. AND THE NEXT MSG was sumting cropped up at home cannot make it.>.< color="#c0c0c0">also SORRRRY LA!!! so after remedial i went to study wif emm clara huii and val. den listen study and do finish physics that ws. hehee. bahhh. can cross out another one. den whole day msging gege. den i wenta meet him for dinner. supposed to he treat de los. but i was late. very late. SORRRY TOO!!! x) hmmms.den i say no nid treat. i was following him for quite long den he realised i was at the back hehe. lalala. den i decided to ask wanru to come. so we waited for her at pastamania. and in the end the kind gege decided to treat us all eat. bill around $29 wors. but he keep using the receipt to "ya" us.geee >.< WELCOME TO PASTAMANIA! CAN I TAKE YOUR ORDER?" or sumting like tt de la. so funnny rite. bleah. den after tt weikwong and yy called me. ask me go watch movie was tinking why so weird. couple ask me go be lightbulb. but i just din expect. arhh nvm. WEIKWONG I DUN WAN TRUST U LE BAHHHHHHHHHHH! so mean de. u broke ur promise. hmmm. den went town wif gege wanru to meet keith xinwen terry and kevin(he left quite early) deciding wad show to waTch.btu quite late leh. so in the end nv watch. after a lot of la la che che. gee! so we walked to some coffeeshop. quite famous my uncle bring me there b4. behind somerset de. to eat kaya bread and nasilemak keith dey all hungry we had our DINNER! x) den xinwen left. we went to take train. and i reaCh home only to receive a shock. no i HAVEN reach home. lol. bah i shall not elaborate.



imreallySORRY.dun do wad u did today again. it's not worth it. at least not for me. find another gal. i dun deserve u. u are scarying me. u are freaking me out. i din wan to accept anyting from u. i dun wan to be another false hope giver. u and ow are two different people. two differnt problems. it's just different. geddit? u are not him. u'll nv be. even if u did try to do something. but. nothing will change the fact. dun tear for me. im not worth your tears. keep it for the gal u love. love hurts. so dun ever fall in love. HAHA. it'll hurt u alot. it's a warning! lol. dun infatuate also. very bad de. hahaha. IM A FEMALE JERK!

boring day ^^

okiee. today is a boring day. i woke up at ten plus and slacked until now. computer i tink on for whole day liaos. going to explode liao! did not much hw. a few englihs questions gee. tml got geog remedial super sian-ed 8-10!!!!!!!!!!! grrr.

being the kind me. tml ive decided to send the cedarians going to thailand off. so i'll be at airport arnd 6.30 am? den rite. my dad send me there. and he's gonna wait for me and send me to sch wheeee x)) lalala! lol. and sun bian bring my books home.

ya super sianed nothing to do. just chatting online.

some fren of my fren say cedar is rich and we are slutty and bitchy because we are rich like wad the. in the end. after toking to tt guy. HE DUN EVEN NOE CEDAR LA. gee. nv heard of anyhow tok cock. lalaa bleah.



received a certaine mail. i dunno how to react to it. then it was a certain message that left me confused. i really dunno wad to tell u. i know everyting is so abrupt. i know you cant take it. i know you've been hurt more than ever. i know everything and how you feel. i know sorry has no cure. i just dunno how to face u. u wanted to know why am i doing this to you but the problem is i dun even know why am i doing all these ?so many things to write but certainly so little time to express it all out. i dunno how you found your way to here. to read the truth. im sorry i lied. im sorry everyting has to happen this way. maybe i gave you false hope. dun tink too much. cheer up x))

to clara (:

this post is specially dedicated to CLARA YEE for helping me tink of my blog url x)) thanks loads!

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okie that was meant to be a heart!

haha bleahs. wadeva x)

;; s a k a e s u s h i

i slept for around 12 hours x) woke up around 1 like that. replenish my energy because whole week i sleep so late and wake up so early wheeee. so shuang. but the more i sleep the more lethargic i feeeel! geeee! wake up eat cup nooodles online read magazine do homework homework homework homework. arrhh! i fell back aslp hehe. den my mum woke me up. she treat me go eat sakae sushi. dunno why so good mood arh. dad's gone to a dinner. bro's out for dinner wif frens. so the 3 females are left alone to eat ourselves. LOL. today's a boring day but tml will be even more. STUDY HOMEWORK STUDY HOMEWORK. miss leongs says 64 hours worth of homework.. for the whole holiday? i tink it's more than that.
let's see arh

1. english - (a) sum summary worksheet
(b) cedar prelim paper 2004
2. chinese - (a) assessment book practice
3. a maths - (a) 4 other school paper [sji,stgabs and other i cant remember is wad]
4. e maths - (a) 4 maths practices
5. physics - (a) series 6 [means tys all the pages which ends wif 6 must do all the q]
(b) a worksheet which states which other tys questions we must do
6. chemistry - (a) 4 other school chemistry prelim papers
7. history - (a) 6 structured essays to do
(b) source based

hmmms tink not all the subject haf hw? tink again. we must complete all the MYE corrections?
hmmms and tt's not all.
u seee arh. june holidays is for us to study and piang and chiong for o level rite? with remedials on first second and fourth week of the holidays we where got enuff time to study. but going back to sch is fun. BUT everyday 8 am very tired leh! lol. conclusion: no time! and wad 5 day week ting. RUBBSIH LOS. total crap wheee.
apparently i only completed maths. IM JUST BIASED TOWARDS MATHS LA. it rocks totally.




today is a peaceful day. no nothing. except only the other him la. ive been ignoring his sms-es and calls as well. i jsut din wan to answer or reply. i dun wanna him to be like the others. but. i dunno. he persevers he says he misses me he says im ignoring him. i dun wan him to be hooked to me to be so reliant on me. i want him to give up. to forget me. im sorry. i dun wan another person to be hurt again. bernice calls me a female jerk. but it's not my fault wad. it just aint. it's just me. im just like that. knowing too many pple has its pros and cons. if u wan sumting done quick or u nid sumting from tt certain sch or u nid help from sumone or u just nid sumbody to tok to to cry on to be there for u. there's so many to ask from to choose from. BUT. it also results in more problems. for example, somehwo the marists i noe seemed to noe every other marist that i noe. and. it's like so coincidental.and it's so weird how some of them can go out together. the combi is just weird la. HAHA. but. i dunno. too many pple too many probleems. gee. it'll all begin either from frenster, from sch based activities, from msn, from hp, from frens and results in me and trouble x)). i used to be close to this certain group of pple. den i kinda drag my fren in. now i drift apart from them. the memories are there. but i guess i cant hold on to all my frens at a time. my hands aint that long. ive only got 2 hands. it was such a pity i hafta sacrifice that frenship. or maybe it was just between me adn that few of them. the others are going along fine wif me. there's a quote that goes sumting like tt cant remember the exact one. " There are no permanent friends or enemies only permanent interests" it's like so true? lol. there are no forevers in this world. stop trying to kid urself. friends forever. i love u forever. those are just lies. stop living in self-denial. get back to reality. it's just like no one can live forever u get it? pple who used to be enemies, rolling their eyes upon seeing each other criticising each other. BUT in the end dey become like good friends. how ironic can tt be. like super contradicting las. have been thinking about this for quite long. how the hell did i get to noe so m a n y pple? even i dunnno. lol.


actually got so many so many feelings and thoughts to share. but then again. i dunno how to phrase it. i dunno how to start. i dunno whcih to go first. maybe it'll be better if it's in my mind. nobody will want to noe anyway. it'll be better for me to keep it inside. this way i'll only be sad on the inside. happy on the outside. i happy everybdoy also will happy at least i tink so. nobody will care about wad i really type here. at least i tink u will not. lol.


on a lighter note....
lol. dey had their campfire tonite which means tml they will break camp. and i can tok to them again. PLAY wif them again x) hehes. and can tok to him again. i miss him so much these few days. LOL! bleahs * i changed my msn dp le* so u cannot scold me. LOL. okiee pple u all dun tink too much. this guy over here in topic is only a sec 2. and pple who noe me well will noe i dun gao jie di lianone LOl.


im still eating at this time. gee. wad? WATERMELONS. W A T E R M E L O N S. hehehehe rocks. it's red. it's juicy. muahaha.

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wah piang eh. turned out i deleted the most important part of the html away. NO WONDER my entry cannot appear ytd x)) how stupid can i be man. THANKS JIA WEN! I LURRVE YOU! WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE WITHOUT YOU *MUACKS* shud i let many many pple know about this blog or the fewer the better?

i dunno wad song to put for the blog leh. this one los. wait till i have sudden craving for another song. ALL ABOUT U! but it's too noisy for my beautiful blog. CREDITS TO JIAWEN AGAIN! hehes.


well today had physics again supposedly 8-12. so long rite. good ol` kind miss thang gave up a break at arnd 10. den dismissed us at 11 plus. because we were getting restlesss and she was kinda not late in the syllabus. x)) wheee. love her man. den went to toa payoh mac and study!!! for arnd 6 hours. doing my maths holiday homework. a few questions more and i clear maths officially! wheeee. halfway we were hungry hmm. we left our stuff at mac and went to long john for lunch. haha. we were trying to hide the pens on the table beacuse each pen cost $3 and yunqian say wait pple steal. den say cedar windbreaker also. and 5 stacks of new foolscap and other worthless stuff. so we hid it all under the homework. how lame. ahhaa feliccia and pple came. muahaa den went library at 6 plus. anad studied until 9. muaha. IM A COOL NERD.







should i give me and yoo another chance? i do not know. im so tired of life. so tired of getting hurt. so tired of everything. i dunno whether to believe you again. i dunno where to put my trust. once and again. u hurt me badd. seven months gone just like that? i dun wana it to end just like that. im sad. do u noe? u dun. because u dunno about this blog. and im being super super sarcastic in my sms-es. trying to give up on this relationship and forget everything. will i be able to do it i wonder. i need time. to let my wounds heal. they cant open and close as and when dey like. it is painful. u talkked about memories. if this is to end i wan to end it beautifully. go away and dun spoil the wonderful dreams u created for me. should i give it another shot another try? BUT each time i try again each time i get hurt. how long more must this go on before u realise the importance of me. everytime u only cherish something after u lose it. it's not just me. let me cry once more in your arms once again. i nid that feeling that security. after this last, i promise nv to bother u again. will it be better for both of us? u said it was up to me to decide. is this relationship that insignificant? Stop saying it's up to me. The day you gave up on trying to get to me. by calls messages friendster or emails. the day u gave up on trying. did u tink it was up to me? the very day u gave up on me. u have already made the choice of leaving me. it wasnt up to me choose anyting. whether or not it was in a moment of anger. what's said is already said. i admit it mite be my fault that tings have to end up like that. because of HER. or me? am i just being insensitive. possessive perhaps. i din wan to talk to u because i dunno i tink i was angry u contacted her when u promised to stop. den u ask if we can still be friends. does it still matter? nothing ever mattered before u left. nothing. the pain inflicted by u on my heart by me on my hand is intolerable. i cannot take it anymore. my life will never be completed without u by my side. i miss you truly i want to hug u madly i lurrve yoo deeply. but nothing aint the same anymore. SORRY.

x)) haappiiee biirthdaay x))

today is YUNQIAN's and ANDREW's birthday.

x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo`` x))
x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo`` x))
x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo-uu`` x))
x)) haappiiee biirthdaay to yoo`` x))

had physics remedial from 8-10 in the comp lab. 10-12 chemistry in the thearette. miss chng must be feeling tired today or something. she started lesson only at 10.30. den she say dismiss at 11.30 she asked us if it was too early. IT WILL NEVER BE TOO EARLY LAS apparently. 4C pple are slackers man. SUPPPERR LAZY x)) wheeee

anyway after that went to eat seoul garden - to celebrate miss wu's 16th birthday. hahaa ate until everybody stomach's *booom* lol. VALERIE ATE LIKE wad five BOWLS OF ICE CREAM!
man tt's like alot la. den cannot walk. hahaha. after that we went home. wheee. and here doing my latest blog? hurhurs.

xinwen's in camp. awwww. so sad. dear's sad. honey's sad. everybody's sad. keith and pple too. bOOOO! so boring. time to study? i guess so. BLAAHH. madness.